My dream was just crushed. Sucks to be me.

Well. Received an email from the Stony Brook International Piano Festival the other day. If there's one place I won't be this July, it's New York. I keep telling myself that the last seven months weren't a waste and what I gained was much more important than being rejected by people who have never even met me. I learned the hardest music I have ever attempted. I loved learning those pieces. These were the happiest seven months of my life. All this is very true, but I'm still rather crushed. I really believe that anything is possible, but it's hard to keep believing that when things like this happen. I wanted to believe that I could be accepted into the elite club of piano performing despite the fact that there is nothing remotely remarkable about my playing except for the fact that I live for it. But how can I believe that when I'm constantly turned away? This sucks.

I want to let you know that, sometimes what you think you want so bad isn't actually what will make you happy in the end. Maybe it's a good thing you weren't accepted for now.


You also don't need to be in a "school" to learn, most of the learning we do in life is done outside the walls of the school. You can still continue to progress

I personally believe there's a reason for everything and nothing happens by chance. Instead of looking at the bad in this situation, ask yourself, what are the good things about this?

thanks andrew i know its not as bad as it seems right now. and at least this way i can get a job this summer.

no problem ^_^ Things will get better! Keep practising